Been to the cemetery today after work dad to have a little chat to you as I wanted to speak to you as I won’t get to see you over Christmas which is going to be very hard for me as I have always been with you Christmas Day having our Christmas dinner… it’s just not going to be the same… I know your looking down on me and I just hope that you would be proud of me… I honestly can’t put into words just how much I miss you…I have always spent Christmas afternoon with you and this year I can’t do that and it breaks my heart knowing I can’t do that!!! I’d do anything to have a chat to you and to have another one of your Christmas dinners...I just feel so lost…not a day goes by where I don’t think of you, not a week goes by where I don’t wish I was staying with you twice a week like I use to and this year not having you here for Christmas is unbearable! Your my dad and you brought me up, I have always been with you and knowing I can’t come and see you Christmas Day is just killing me inside… that’s why I just wanted to pop and say a few words to you today…I miss you so bloody much and I love you dad…xxx